chemical reaction

my face!!
my poor fucking pizza moon face!

after the holiday season, i was coerced by a very chic looking woman at the bay to buy this soap called cor. i bought a trial bar which cost 18$ but the big bar is a whopping $125 as is the lotion. she introduced the bar to me because she noticed some acne on my face. i was like "hey lady, i'm just hear to buy some clinique products, i'm not hear for a facial consultation!" but her chicness drew me in and she sounded so concerned. and because i'm on the hop with all new products, she saw sucker. i tried the bar and it was amazing!!!!!!!!! my face cleared, i wasn't moisturizing and i seriously looked like i got a facial. i wasn't even waring make up!
BUT
because i didn't want to shell out 125$ for the moisturizer, i thought i could just use my old stuff. i was going out and i wanted my face to be doubly moisturized. the 2 did not mix!!!!!! it was like a fucking science experiment hit my face and exploded! the next day, when i awoke, my face was red, raw and it hurt. then when i washed it, skin started to peel off in my hands. i thought, this is it, this is my poltergeist. in the madness of my vanity, i applied more lotion not knowing yet, that this was the cause of my "ugliness". my face burned! i mean it felt like it was on fire. and it wasn't just a nice tingly feeling you get with noxema, my mother fucking face was lit! i panicked and tried washing it off, and then it burned even more! when the burn started to turn into a numbing feeling, which was on the 3rd day, it looked like i had gone and gotten a chemical peel from dr. erasemyface. my daughter kept asking "what's wrong with your face?", "are you allergic?", "what happened?" because the red parts were bumped out and dry. it's been nearly a week and my face is still dry, the redness has gone down but i could sand wood with this face! so in the vain effort to control this, i have stopped moisturizing, which took the redness down and i am planning to buy the cor moisturizer tomorrow. if i end up in another lab and my face has exploded, cor will be hearing from me again ... yes, i did email their customer service people. i'm no model or the prettiest girl in the world, but this is my face.

hard to see but it's raw, pink and dry, similar to the pics above!

gathering inspiration

OMG - through apartment 34, i found e tells tales, who shared these photos, i am completely smitten. my phase for paris isn't fleeting and this has deepened it more into my heart. my inspiration wall would include works, colour palettes, textures and design from manon gignoux. be still my heart.

choice story

i feel like i'm going crazy these days. i gave myself a deadline of what it is that i would be doing when i grow up. W will be in school in 2 years, so i have been putting more thought to how i am going to be exiting my privileged life. i'm one month close to having my student loans paid off - YAY! i work part part time which allows me to have free time to take care of W and figure out what it is that i want to be doing. ok, so let's be honest, the cool factor of what it is that i want to be doing has struck a cord with my decision. aside from me having an interest in going to college for business, i want to do photography, make bags and scarves, learn typography, learn the basics of video making and design tee shirts. i want it all. i want it all with a big fat pay cheque. i have never been on cheap street, i like and enjoy having money. hence the reason why i am also looking for an evening job. the friday job is alright, fulfilling actually, but i have this tendency to shop, a dire need to travel and dine. so here it is, everything that i want to be doing, what i want on my plate and the quest begins on friday. i love that these choices are open enough for me that i can give myself the option.
maybe i roll everything into one????

babes in styleland

about a few months ago, my friend sent me this link: http://seaofshoes.typepad.com/ yes, another fashion blog. this one intrigued me, it sparked the jealous cord in me and ignited it into a frenzy where i wanted to be younger, richer and in the know. i started to look at her photographs, read her words and hear her smile. i applauded her photos; which range from family members, photo shoots, fashion and designers, her need to expel what designer she was wearing or coveting makes me feel like i already know her and her make shift into the fashion world by being a shoe designer herself at 18 is amazing to me. merde!, i was about to have a baby at 18!

and then i was introduced to this little lady: http://tavi-thenewgirlintown.blogspot.com/
i read a short blurb on her in the latest Fashion Magazine. it wasn't until now that i actually checked her out. she's getting millions of hits, sitting front row at highlighted fashion shows in paris, (jealous?) milan, new york and so on. and she is 13! i am predicting that she will be bigger than miss anna wintour.

i am embracing the style of fashion blogging. it's immediate and can connect you almost instantaneously to another site of interest or purchase depending on your internet connection. but i still do enjoy leafing through a magazine with a hot cup of earl grey, legs up and relaxed to voyeur next season's styles and to boycot the trends.

the perfect date

Ranges ta chambre qu'ils disaient..., originally uploaded by Pierre Delefosse.

size 7.5 or 8

Chaussure à son pied ?, originally uploaded by Pierre Delefosse.

pierre is one of my contacts on flickr. he takes me back to paris and introduces me to a new france. merci beaucoup pierre!

waking up

the after party crash, i get mind lingers not hang overs. i don't know which one is worse. i had too many revelations this morning. i feel unsettled. it's almost like everything is good, but not fine. i walked a lot tonight. it felt good to clear some air.
there are 2 friends that i have in my life that continue to share their advice with me, want to hear from me, check in with me, etc. i sometimes take cues from them. example, deleting facebook. i contemplated it and thought more about it tonight. i think i'm going to let it go. an example of advice given, knowing who is who in your life, weighing each person and being with the people that weigh the most.
i know, common sense. i should know this shit right? and i do.
i get so caught up with someone liking me that i forget about who it is that i like and when that happens, my relationships slowly begin to lose the weight.
i think i may be anorexic.
i do this from time to time, i'll become a bit of a recluse, it makes it easier to lighten the load. i'm going to visit mommyworld, that always adds some pounds. it may not be interesting or anything anyone wants to hear, but like everyone else, i'm going to do what makes me happy.
i'm adding weight in the wrong circles. i knew this, i just needed the night to confirm it.

ps. i'm so cliche today.

the blacks and whites of my days

let there be light

SKK.net

is this worth 200$??? i want to redecorate W's room. he needs a light, he doesn't like the dark. i fear the bunny might actually want him to be in the dark. there is a dog though????

i'm not the only one

Skhizein (Jérémy Clapin,2008) from Bertie on Vimeo.

real estate

http://www.etsy.com/shop/VictorianDollhouse

vow of silence

2 hours past curfew
revealed too much
asshole - questionable

i called myself a douch-hag tonight. at some point there will be a visual answer to this. my shirt literally caught on fire tonight.

mortified.

Day Thirteen

TWENTY - TEN, one day i'll be asked to dance, until then ...

in with the new

last night was spent with friends, drinks, music and a very late night with absolutely no hangover. another reason why i only stick to vodka and lemon.
twenty ten a new beginning? or just another reason to lament on the resolutions/disappointments from 2009? i'm going to ignore the latter and give myself the benefit of the doubt that i will maintain the goals that are made at the beginning of every new year.

1) spend more time with family and friends (quality time, dinners, brunches)
2) be good to my body, less smoking, eating well and getting in exercise
3) go to more movies
4) finish the projects that i have started ... redecorating the house, the scarves, blogging and photographing

Happy New Year!